Of course I go into each year thinking the kids will have matured, less assbutts will be there, and I and everything around me will be different, but what happens? The kids are still stupid. More immature idiots come in. And I'm still the same, quiet, shy, isolated person I was last year. I lost all my confidence. I began to feel that insecurity I always feel at school.
It's like during the summer, you don't see the collective group of high schoolers everywhere you turn. Then you return to school and it's like the Borg. The collective is running around with all the same clothing, same attitudes, same stupidity. And if you are not assimilated, you are an unwelcome outsider.
In classes I feel so uncomfortable. I try to be a little more outgoing, or at least I tell myself I will be, and when I try I mess up.
And to top it all off I already forgot to bring home a textbook I was supposed to read from and it's due tomorrow for my first class.
Other than the stupid social awkwardness, the academic part of school I think is going to be fun. I have on my B day Fashion Design, Fine Arts, lunch, Trig, then Digital Art so it's almost an entire day of art. My teachers seem nice so far too. Let's just hope I can put aside all the morons at school and focus on what's actually important. It's just hard when they're surrounding you and making you feel like you don't belong there.
Just... I don't know. I just don't.
Now to find out how to do this homework assignment so I don't get a bad rep the first day in.